The cycle of human life from beginning to end encounters a pattern of ascent and then descent where one’s habitual patterns of self-survival are developed through the trial and error of circumstance and then eventually discarded by infirmity. Self-delusion of one’s place, position and purpose often accompany this progression for as events change in the individual’s experience, personal attitudes tend to lag behind somewhat like a sea anchor to stabilize the direction traveled. This inertia of travel from a long recalled point ‘A’ to Point ‘B’ and all points in-between makes up the context of the philosophy of life. For better or worse, one struggles to consider the sum total of their existence as increasingly rational and reasonable. Even when it becomes obvious that the continuation of life will soon be untenable one becomes temporarily blinded by the continuum of past rituals of continued habit rather than address the fact of imminent mortality. How does this reconcile the greatest survival tool available to all, in terms of a constantly shifting truth about ourselves ceaselessly frozen into view within the instant of the present? At key points it seems to become a spinning compass needle. When useful illusions are peeled away, one by one, by the reality of the currency of the situation where does this leave one? Hiding or paddling forth further into the unknown?
This it seems is the essence of existence where angst and acceptance are deceptively difficult and eventually impossible to reconcile. All the parables and maxim’s derived from the life experiences of others while they might comfort with the possibility of hope do not vouchsafe one’s likelihood of survival. Especially when the physical casing that houses the force of will begins to fail. This test is inevitable for all. At a distance it seems self-evident as a path but it is the pinnacle of the personal definition of each life. The scales upon which the sum total of life experience of each life is brought into play and tested to provide the final most accurate definition of that person’s soul for that eternal temporal register of the universe.