There are many things that are hard to get your head around. Even when you have experienced them too many times before in the past! One of them is the passing of someone however far removed from your present day experience was in those times lived many decades previous. The anomaly of death stirs up the bottom depths of ones consciousness and summons old memories that have been so long ago put to rest. It also engenders random thoughts of how indifferent the larger world of humanity eventually is to one’s hopes of ultimate existence. The sad truth is that one cannot count on much in terms of lasting regard from the public at large. The squabbles of yesteryear are immediately forgiven albeit too late. You find to your surprise that you have more of an affinity with them now that they are gone than you ever had after your fractious parting during life. A sense of unexpected responsibility to recall their many achievements during the short span of their life much as others have equally seemingly chosen not to. Surely, the remnants of their presence with be scrupulously erased from the present soon enough. The world will turn and the Sun will rise and all those little moments spend together between the two of you with return to their rest, no doubt slowly but very finally. But this unavoidably sad news will change you fundamentally deep down. Life will seem ever less secure and somehow more lacking. The light of dusk will seem a little more distantly removed and melancholy. Its poetry barren falling flat into that distant approach of nightly darkness. The enveloping silence that is left will long await the ring of her voice as the accompanying shadows will continue to anticipate the impossibility of her return. All those long lost foolish expectations of the youthful fulfillment of attraction once cherished within now assuredly dashed far beyond any hope. The best chapters of your liaisons will linger persistently as a happier more golden imprint of what ever occasionally once was. And you will see yourself more and more just beside them as in some ways you have always been.