Consider that the emotional disruption may have a direct correlation to your psychic sensitivities? You are taking in more local and distant energy than most. We are all plagued with what appears to be more general negativity than what we claim we were previously accustomed to. There may have been less disruption when we were less evolved in youth? Or the inevitable change from one of youth to more aged may have expanded or evolved perception. Either way one has a choice. That is not a discussion about judgement of ones strengths but an issue of survival. There is no relief to life! There is only a choice of how to take it. Bad can be looked at in a variety of ultimately positive ways.
When one is at one year old you poop or pee regardless of consequence. When you are old and lose control you are continual haunted by consequence. But the essential experience of life in the constant of present is in your control based on how you desire it to be handled. Nothing just immediately changes like a light switch previously forgotten but now suddenly found. The issue of eternal torment being are you naturally passive or are you aggressive. Each side of same comes with its own set of problems. This dilemma seems to be a lesson to be grappled with and learned if noting else by failing until you finally exhaust all the possibilities and find one that works.
Maybe no one ever dies? They just leave the ‘auditorium’ for a while and have to re-enrolled to take the class over again or when they succeed move on to the next level above. The three choices of after come into play here:
You die and then whoosh (nothingness).
You die and it’s heaven which soon seems like Hell.
Or you die and you end up waking up to the same thing like you just dozed off. Who knows?
I get the idea that you present that human experience is a deceptive form of what appear to be perception of material solid at least once removed from another centralized energy based sense of same in a collective organ called the brain. Of course this description is totally dependent upon the material based understanding first order suggesting that these same material based principles are carried through to a physically immaterial arrangement of energy based relationships that form what appears to be an individual consciousness.
The possibility that other waveforms are tapping into this central ego bound personality (aka ourselves) from other sources many supposedly similar to ourselves becoming a query as to the boundaries of perception. Since the notion of conventional physics is that the compositional characteristics of energy is defined by bandwidth and its relative vitality directly affecting what one can normally perceive. The limitation of the intellect and imagination forming a shell at the perceptible boundaries being an abstract limitation in waking reality.
OK, That reduces self-conscious experience to some different possible sources. In the light of this limited expectation of our universes:
A) The illusion of ‘we’ could all be in the head of some all encompassing Vishnu character perpetually asleep and serial dreaming.
B) It could equally be a implicit hierarchy where both waking and dormant nightly realities suggest an outside force/s that battle to convince us by an illusory but abstracted construct ala. Warshawsky Bros. “Matrix” or Alex Proyas “Dark City” (Saturn cult).
C) The material plane that seems illusory could be generating energy to give the perception of an outer universe that is analogous to a complex chemical faking a larger sense of spatial forever like the universe (Gaia projection) God being me and I being ‘god’?
But a big question being shoved to the front of your thoughts as you change from young to old in the corollary of that thing called age still revolves in the safety of middle of your perceptive limits (mutually acceptable normal). If people and events are merely of your own making then do you follow their rules or make up your own ones? If it is a battle royal with the undetectable imperceptible forces is it merely an ongoing defensive struggle to maintain your own little world or an aggressive struggle to go where no man has gone before and spread your seed?
The idea of harmonics and scalar is that one can propagate throughout the entire spectrum or so says Tesla. So then the tension point is the tissue of the separation of the proverbial ying and yang chaos. The idea of duality as in the existence of diametric extremes, forever large, forever miniscule, etc. The material used as a means of description being a crutch to all this that may not explain anything past its own presence. The trick has be to surrender the material as the ultimate yardstick for something else.
For my money things are not as simple as stated. But however one slices it one is the steersman of their own fate. You weather the bad storms and rest after them. You take the time to enjoy your experience of life such as it is and celebrate it, even if you are alone. And you continue to seek better circumstances because you always have hope of the warmth of the possibility of finding the light of some love and happiness.