One day within the continuum of your life you will wake up and find that your everyday existence is in grave jeopardy of being permanently ended. Vulnerable to the fact that you have lost or are rapidly losing your place in everyday society. And consequently, will no longer be able to carry on as you have for all the years before. The longstanding illusion of who you are and the importance attached to it now coming to an end.
You may have have some money coming in, but the bills that you are required to pay are slowly becoming much greater than you can afford. Every trip to the grocery store to buy food finds the prices always are creeping up higher. You no longer have the physical space support the valued material possessions that you have amassed over your lifetime and are in critical danger of losing them all.
You find that you have no real friends left as they have all moved on with their lives to somewhere or someone else. Or simply died off. The skills that you have spent a lifetime of effort in mastering are now obsolete and considered no longer useful by current society. The notion of employing a form of barter for trading your services for much needed goods goes nowhere in light of an invasive technological A.I. driven world economy. You try to sell your once valuable possessions but now they are considered worthless. You will slowly starve and grow sick and die hold up in your own hovel. Or worse yet, be quickly be cast out by society onto a street corner with a shopping cart and finally cease to exist as far as the rest of the world is concerned.
This will occur without you realizing it soon enough to be able to take proper steps to change it. The course of marshaling up whatever energies remain to try to prevent it grows less and less probable. You find out too quick that you are not the person you once were. You are at the mercy of fellow humanity who might be sharing these same desperate feelings of fear but see you as competition. But all things eventually must come to an irrevocable final conclusion. There is no guarantee that things will be any better for you no matter what you do.
Your body is not longer in a reasonable state of good physical condition as it once was. Your internals are slowly beginning to fail in a way that directly affects any ability to compete with others who are much younger. And this alone reduces your changes to survive. Your view of the world changes and you find that it is at odds with that of the rest of popular society. And when you voice your concerns it tends to set you at odds with others that bothered to listen. And that drives them away from you and their regard for your well being. Most of their viewpoint’s tend to follow the latest current trends and viewpoints that see you as a weighing society down.
The greatest danger then comes in surrendering yourself to a state of animal fear and subsequently defaulting to a utter frenzy that might very well of itself accelerate this whole entire process! This realization of your own vulnerability due to inevitably diminishing circumstances becomes utterly devastating. And you feel like an animal that has been suddenly been targeted by a predator and seems to have no possibility of retreating to safety as you once might have expected.
This entire experience of daily life becomes a test of will to be able to survive at all costs! A “Fuck the Past!” and “Move on!” attitude, given to the fact of an uncertain present, now being necessary. You begin the lighten your load of once treasured possessions. Despite feeling your nakedness your resolve is now to survive no matter what. This is your only shield. All illusions, whether external or of your own making, are no longer of any use.
Perhaps, trying to carrying on your former experience of life as a routine existence that you recall from the recent past that was characterized by general indifference? This suggests that there is a greater disaster looming just ahead. A fatal standoff where some great catastrophe that you can’t predict will stop you? Save for your sense of animal intuition? Life up to this point may have been unusually stable and possibly uneventful? But that too will radically change.
A sense of an inescapable building desperation urging you to act you is now what you tend to feel? Yet feeling that there is great danger in acting precipitously, as this reaction could be potentially more dangerous to you than what you fear the most may take place.
Heah! Welcome to old age!